Time, History, Representation, God, Memory
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Just finished my second readthrough of The Storm Before the Storm: The Beginning of the End of the Roman Republic, Duncan.
Some second impressions then
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wy the supersticion of angels and …
of gamers and bad posturee
angel
Messenger
Devil
Daimon, an intermediary power, a deity…
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Judah reads the communist manifesto while in a catholic school
The Temple
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a familiarity with political history makes it so hard to comprehend how the framers of the american apartheid were …
empire feels too…distant. too star wars. maybe apartheid
…how the framers of the american apartheid were/are seen as political geniuses? oh wow you are going to have different offices with the ability to regulate each other? woah we’ve got a real aristotle over here boyssszz
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interesting, i remember the [Redacted] sermons of the churches i went to as a todler, 4 or younger anyway…
all that shit
the body is a n o b j e c t .but it is an object the
obvesence
octovesence
ontovesence
oooh
maybe the aliens are already under water
we haven’t gone that deepp
maybe
devil, daimon, …
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I recently was watching a video on Religion for breakfast about daimons
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celebrities as gods
bill gates is for all intents and purposes a god
he flies around wherever he wants, he can stretch out his hand and you have a well, a sanitation plant, a thousand iPads,
patron demigod of the arts, sciences, truth, democratic party, republican party
a superstitious empire
.(The Empire Never Ended.)
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i like how duncan arts narrative out of history, i like retelling history as gossip or horror or whatever
i hate the phrase historical fiction, it always makess me think of like the magical tree house white kids flying back through time to fuckin’ 1820s Kentucky frontiere
well. that and fiction surrounding the Shoah.
its weird how much fiction they had me read about the Shoah.
including a lot of
WTF type shit
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lmao Z̦anon
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wowowowowowowowowowow
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isn’t all fiction historical? or do you think you have immediate grasp on the present moment and thereby transsend the need for representation?
time and representation
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i guess that’s what my first essay i published on here was about.
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i suffered over that piece. i think i had to re-invent my image of myself as a writer all over again, after the depression, the extensions, the leave, pennsylvania, [REDACTED], homelessness/exile, Philadelphia, [REDACTED], the drive west, The Long Drive West, west coast homelessness (which was much less scary, and during which i was offered a lot by people who cared about me). then a house, with the job at safeway (nightmare of nightmares), but the safety of a basement bedroom living with people whose lifestyles were stable and dependable and i was treated like the one of four housecats who was a rescue/stray and who took the longest time to get to know you…
then of course there was [REDACTED] and the spring with S & A, who i knew then were going to be friends i would miss for a long time…
and then moving into the house, what a rupture in time, and i was there only 3 weeks when i met [REDACTED], and everything changed…
…i want to re-read some books from that time, i think. yeah, and go on some of the same walks. i think routines help me understand the time better.
I miss Grushanka and Sonja
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